Another Ok Day....

So today started out perfectly.....

Stupid. 

I was going to give Nicole the poem I wrote her (To see it, go to 

http://vanessaspoetry.blogspot.com/2008/10/third-poem-what-have-i-done.html ) 

but I was too scared. I'm such a chicken. As we were getting off the bus, it seemed like she was avoiding me. That kinda made me upset. We had an armed intruder drill 1st period, and then we were doing stuff on our calculators that I didn't understand. Then half way into 2nd period, I realized that I left my gym bag in math class! So before lunch 4th period, I had to go up to the math room and get my stuff, when there was a class of Juniors or Seniors there. I was so embarrassed. The rest of the day was pretty uneventful, until when I stayed after school. I went for math help, and I was finished early so I called my mom to see if she could pick me up. We got mad at each other, and she told me that I had to take the late bus that came an hour later. 

But that's not even the worst part. 

I didn't have my id to get on the late bus, so I just assumed that they would let me on without consequence. 

WRONG! 

My friend Nikki told me that you get written up (which to me means DETENTION) for going on the late bus without an id. So I was screwed, because I knew my mom would be pissed. Nikki called her mom and asked if she could give me a ride home. She said yes. So as we're waiting for Nikki's mom, my mom calls, and I tell her what's going on, and she tells me that even though it's COMPLETELY out of her way, she's gonna pick me up. So I'm like "ok.". Nikki and I are waiting for our moms to pick us up (and by this time my stupid CELL PHONE BATTERY DIED AGAIN!!!!!) and I didn't realize my mom called me. Then suddenly I turn on my phone and I have a voice mail. I listen to it, and it's my mom screaming at me, saying she's in the parking lot. I'm like "SHIT!!!" and I run outside. 

I am seriously surprised my mom didn't pop a brain cell. She was screaming at me at the top of her lungs for at least 10 minutes. It was absolutely insane. I was trying so hard not to cry most of the time, and eventually I did cry. It was really upsetting to hear her yell at me like that. 

And one of the things that hurt me the most was her constant repetition of my obsession with the Monkees and the Beatles. 

Why can't she just even try to understand that I really like them? It really hurts me that she's so against it! I mean, at least I'm not into drugs or something like that. She doesn't even realize that my 'stupid Beatles story' is something that keeps me from cutting myself again. 

Instead, she decides to do what made me cut myself the first time: lower my self-esteem. 

I really wish she could understand that. 

Anyway, then we went to the super market. I was hoping to see Carly there, since she works there, but she wasn't. I wish she was!

But at least I'm feeling better now. 

<3, 

V A N E S S A 

SOOOOOOOO SEXY...... <333333

Carly was showing me pictures, and those two stood out from the rest.... 

all I can say about them is RAWR<333 

Mike Nesmith was one sexy beast<3. 

Peace and Luv, 

Vanessa<333

Boredom and WikiAnswers

So I'm totally bored. Right now, I'm answering WikiAnswers questions so that I can become a  bronze contributor. I also really want to become the supervisor of the category, The Beatles. Ooh! I just got an e-mail a minute or two ago that gave me the results of which Twilight character are you..... 

YAY!!!!!! 

I was hoping I would be Bella Swan! It also says.... 

Bella Swan. 

 You are Bella Swan, the apple of Edward's eye. You are very private, clumsy, sweet, and funny. You have a wonderful ability to accept people (or mythical creatures) for what they are. You have an amazing capacity to love, even though you can be too hard on yourself.

Ok, now I'm really happy!  :) 

Oh, also I posted a poem I wrote for Nicole on my poetry blog, at 

http://vanessaspoetry.blogspot.com/

Peace && Luv, 

Vanessa<3

Wow... I have no life

All day today I was on the computer. That is pretty sad. I got on the computer at about 11:30 this morning, and I've been on ever since. 

I've been waiting for Carly to come online..... 

But she hasn't. :(

I probably should call her. 

~Vanessa

Stuck In My Head....

I have one of my own songs stuck in my head. It's crazy!

Now On A Happier Note.....

Yesterday my friend Danielle gave me a link for the newest Twilight trailer, 

http://www.myspace.com/trailerpark

. This totally made me feel a lot better! I am so excited to see that movie, because I read all the books. I totally love Twilight! Plus, it comes out 8 days before my 16th birthday!!! I am super super excited for this movie, and I totally wish it would come out sooner! 

Even though I don't think Robert Pattinson is perfect for Edward, I still can not wait for the movie!!!!

Peace and Love,

Nessa<3

Worst Football Game....Ever

Yesterday ended up absolutely sucking. I went to the homecoming game without a sweatshirt first of all and ended up buying a 30 dollar school sweatshirt (with my school's name on it and all). Then, I got so bored. I don't really like football in the first place, and the only reason I went yesterday was because they were announcing homecoming king and queen (The guy I voted for for king won!). But the crowning wasn't till half time, so I had to sit through the first half of the game with my friends, totally bored. My other friend Nikki didn't feel good, and we both wanted to go home. My friend Nicole, though, wanted to stay. She got really mad at me and said "I missed a bunch of football games because of you!" and I got really mad and said "You don't need me to go with you to the games! Go by yourself if you wanna go so bad!" 

Nikki was originally gonna come over my house with me, but instead she wanted to go home. That kinda made me upset, because I knew I would have to deal through the rest of the time with Nicole mad at me! I called my mom (On Nicole's phone because mine died for the millionth time) and she came to pick us up. 

Nicole was absolutely pissed at me, she barley even talked.  I had told my mom earlier that I was upset about something, and she stupidly decided to bring it up in the car with Nicole there. So when we dropped Nicole off, she sent me a text saying "I'm not oblivious, viv." , meaning that she "knows" that I'm mad at her. 

When I got home and went up to my room, I called my best source of happiness, my cousin Carly. But I really wanted to talk to someone about what I was feeling. 

So I told her, through sobs and hysterical crying, how I felt that I really can't keep doing this to Nicole, not hanging out with her, ditching her, etc. I feel so bad about it, and I know what to do, but I'm to stubborn to. And I know that if this keeps up, I'm gonna loose another best friend. That got me thinking about my ex-best friend from the post the other day. She and I were really great friends, but she started talking about me behind my back.  And that really hurt me that someone that I was such great friends with would do that to me. So really, I sort of know how Nicole feels. And I do feel great remorse, and I don't know how to make it up to her. 

I don't want to loose another friend. 

~ Vanessa :(

Nostalgic Xanga Posts and a Football Game

So, today was a generally good day. Not that anything interesting happened. But today I'm going to my school's Homecoming game. That should be interesting, considering that I don't like football. I'll have more on that experience later. 

So right before now, I was looking at my old xangas, and the xangas of my friends and ex-friends. The one thing I found was one of the posts on my ex best friend's xanga(names have been substituted(the line with a star in it is the boy I used to like(not then) and the line with the & is my ex-best friend))..... 

AHHH VAnEsSa is GOoNA KILL ME!!!!! HELP! SeriOUlsy VenessA! IT waZ a Mere MIsTake!
::Flashback::
Vanessa: "OH MY GOD I'm SOOOooooo tired....."
Vanessa points at _*__ and says " I wanna S__P YOu"
Of course Poor lIttle Clueless __&_ didn't hear Vanessa very well....
_&__: "YOU WANNA SLEPP WITH HIM!??!?!?!?!?! O_o"?
Vanessa: "EW!" ___*___: "YOU LITTLe Sick MinDEd PERV!"
Vanessa: "I SAID I WANted TO SLAP HIM!"
:: End Of Flashback::
So now poor __&_ is being attacked by Vanessa's snapping fingers.......

I'm so glad I found that, or I would never have remembered that! 

Even though I still have some bad feelings toward her for talking about me behind my back (that's why she's my EX-best friend), I have to remember that she really was my best friend. :/

Now I feel pretty nostalgic..... and I really miss her as a friend.  

~ Nessa :(

John Lennon's Birthday!

Today is John Lennon's birthday. If he wasn't shot almost 28 years ago, he would have been 68.  That fact makes me sad. He had so much left to offer, and yet it was all taken away from him by some deranged lunatic who just wanted to be remembered with him. I know his name, but I'm not going to mention it because he doesn't deserve the credit. It's just sickening that someone who wanted peace and love was killed in such a violent way. 

The world misses him, and his creative and peaceful mind. 

R.I.P 10/9/40- 12/8/80

Give Peace A Chance. 

~Nessa 

Making up for Yesterday

Hello everyone! Today I have off from school, so I have to do my English homework *sigh*. I have to read 12 chapters of A Tale oF Two Cities, which is a book that I don't really like that much. It's got an interesting underlying message, however, the language used in it is just difficult for me to comprehend. Oh, yesterday was just a regular average day. Nothing special. Except last night I was on the phone with my cousin for like 3 hours. It was insane. But awesome. Ok, well, I'm gonna put up another post after this, so stay tuned! 

Peace and LOVE<3, 

Ness :)