Nikki was originally gonna come over my house with me, but instead she wanted to go home. That kinda made me upset, because I knew I would have to deal through the rest of the time with Nicole mad at me! I called my mom (On Nicole's phone because mine died for the millionth time) and she came to pick us up.
Nicole was absolutely pissed at me, she barley even talked. I had told my mom earlier that I was upset about something, and she stupidly decided to bring it up in the car with Nicole there. So when we dropped Nicole off, she sent me a text saying "I'm not oblivious, viv." , meaning that she "knows" that I'm mad at her.
When I got home and went up to my room, I called my best source of happiness, my cousin Carly. But I really wanted to talk to someone about what I was feeling.
So I told her, through sobs and hysterical crying, how I felt that I really can't keep doing this to Nicole, not hanging out with her, ditching her, etc. I feel so bad about it, and I know what to do, but I'm to stubborn to. And I know that if this keeps up, I'm gonna loose another best friend. That got me thinking about my ex-best friend from the post the other day. She and I were really great friends, but she started talking about me behind my back. And that really hurt me that someone that I was such great friends with would do that to me. So really, I sort of know how Nicole feels. And I do feel great remorse, and I don't know how to make it up to her.
I don't want to loose another friend.
~ Vanessa :(