Wow... I have no life

All day today I was on the computer. That is pretty sad. I got on the computer at about 11:30 this morning, and I've been on ever since. 

I've been waiting for Carly to come online..... 

But she hasn't. :(

I probably should call her. 

~Vanessa

Stuck In My Head....

I have one of my own songs stuck in my head. It's crazy!

Now On A Happier Note.....

Yesterday my friend Danielle gave me a link for the newest Twilight trailer, 

http://www.myspace.com/trailerpark

. This totally made me feel a lot better! I am so excited to see that movie, because I read all the books. I totally love Twilight! Plus, it comes out 8 days before my 16th birthday!!! I am super super excited for this movie, and I totally wish it would come out sooner! 

Even though I don't think Robert Pattinson is perfect for Edward, I still can not wait for the movie!!!!

Peace and Love,

Nessa<3

Worst Football Game....Ever

Yesterday ended up absolutely sucking. I went to the homecoming game without a sweatshirt first of all and ended up buying a 30 dollar school sweatshirt (with my school's name on it and all). Then, I got so bored. I don't really like football in the first place, and the only reason I went yesterday was because they were announcing homecoming king and queen (The guy I voted for for king won!). But the crowning wasn't till half time, so I had to sit through the first half of the game with my friends, totally bored. My other friend Nikki didn't feel good, and we both wanted to go home. My friend Nicole, though, wanted to stay. She got really mad at me and said "I missed a bunch of football games because of you!" and I got really mad and said "You don't need me to go with you to the games! Go by yourself if you wanna go so bad!" 

Nikki was originally gonna come over my house with me, but instead she wanted to go home. That kinda made me upset, because I knew I would have to deal through the rest of the time with Nicole mad at me! I called my mom (On Nicole's phone because mine died for the millionth time) and she came to pick us up. 

Nicole was absolutely pissed at me, she barley even talked.  I had told my mom earlier that I was upset about something, and she stupidly decided to bring it up in the car with Nicole there. So when we dropped Nicole off, she sent me a text saying "I'm not oblivious, viv." , meaning that she "knows" that I'm mad at her. 

When I got home and went up to my room, I called my best source of happiness, my cousin Carly. But I really wanted to talk to someone about what I was feeling. 

So I told her, through sobs and hysterical crying, how I felt that I really can't keep doing this to Nicole, not hanging out with her, ditching her, etc. I feel so bad about it, and I know what to do, but I'm to stubborn to. And I know that if this keeps up, I'm gonna loose another best friend. That got me thinking about my ex-best friend from the post the other day. She and I were really great friends, but she started talking about me behind my back.  And that really hurt me that someone that I was such great friends with would do that to me. So really, I sort of know how Nicole feels. And I do feel great remorse, and I don't know how to make it up to her. 

I don't want to loose another friend. 

~ Vanessa :(

Nostalgic Xanga Posts and a Football Game

So, today was a generally good day. Not that anything interesting happened. But today I'm going to my school's Homecoming game. That should be interesting, considering that I don't like football. I'll have more on that experience later. 

So right before now, I was looking at my old xangas, and the xangas of my friends and ex-friends. The one thing I found was one of the posts on my ex best friend's xanga(names have been substituted(the line with a star in it is the boy I used to like(not then) and the line with the & is my ex-best friend))..... 

AHHH VAnEsSa is GOoNA KILL ME!!!!! HELP! SeriOUlsy VenessA! IT waZ a Mere MIsTake!
::Flashback::
Vanessa: "OH MY GOD I'm SOOOooooo tired....."
Vanessa points at _*__ and says " I wanna S__P YOu"
Of course Poor lIttle Clueless __&_ didn't hear Vanessa very well....
_&__: "YOU WANNA SLEPP WITH HIM!??!?!?!?!?! O_o"?
Vanessa: "EW!" ___*___: "YOU LITTLe Sick MinDEd PERV!"
Vanessa: "I SAID I WANted TO SLAP HIM!"
:: End Of Flashback::
So now poor __&_ is being attacked by Vanessa's snapping fingers.......

I'm so glad I found that, or I would never have remembered that! 

Even though I still have some bad feelings toward her for talking about me behind my back (that's why she's my EX-best friend), I have to remember that she really was my best friend. :/

Now I feel pretty nostalgic..... and I really miss her as a friend.  

~ Nessa :(

John Lennon's Birthday!

Today is John Lennon's birthday. If he wasn't shot almost 28 years ago, he would have been 68.  That fact makes me sad. He had so much left to offer, and yet it was all taken away from him by some deranged lunatic who just wanted to be remembered with him. I know his name, but I'm not going to mention it because he doesn't deserve the credit. It's just sickening that someone who wanted peace and love was killed in such a violent way. 

The world misses him, and his creative and peaceful mind. 

R.I.P 10/9/40- 12/8/80

Give Peace A Chance. 

~Nessa 

Making up for Yesterday

Hello everyone! Today I have off from school, so I have to do my English homework *sigh*. I have to read 12 chapters of A Tale oF Two Cities, which is a book that I don't really like that much. It's got an interesting underlying message, however, the language used in it is just difficult for me to comprehend. Oh, yesterday was just a regular average day. Nothing special. Except last night I was on the phone with my cousin for like 3 hours. It was insane. But awesome. Ok, well, I'm gonna put up another post after this, so stay tuned! 

Peace and LOVE<3, 

Ness :)

Time For a Post

Now I actually have some time for a post! 

My presentation actually went well. Worst than I expected, though. I got really nervous when I actually got into the room, and my legs were shaking as I sat down. I totally screwed up the introduction, and was totally mad at myself for that, but I was ok as the presentation went on. I even fixed a mistake that one of my group members made with a quick thinking question. I was pretty happy with the results. And I also had an excuse to wear a dress. I love dresses. 

I also had swimming today. I have no idea how I'm in the advanced group. I look like a drowning duck when I swim! Anyway, gtg!

Peace && Luv, 

Nessa R<3

Not Much Time for a Post

My mom is being annoying, so I don't have much time to post. Today I had my presentation, and I'll tell about that tomorrow, because I don't have enough time to go into detail. Check for it tomorrow!

Peace and Love<3, 

Ness J.R. 

Today In My Life

Well, today was an ok day. I had a math test that I think I did good on. I did all my homework. I stayed after school and talked with my friends. Oh and speaking of that, My friend Lydia's boyfriend of almost six months (their 6 months anniversary would have been on Thursday) broke up with her. I felt so bad for her! It was her first boyfriend, too! And he used the "I think we should see other people" line. What a load of shit! 

Anyway, so it was an ok day. Tomorrow is my Public Speaking speech on Child Abuse. I think I'm gonna do pretty good on it, as I said before. 

Well, I need to finish my homework and practice my speech, so I'll go now. 

If you want, you can check out my playlist. It's pretty rockin. And of course, Rehab by Rihanna is the first song on there. And why wouldn't it be, it's my favorite! 

Peace And Love<3, 

VJR<3