Worst Football Game....Ever

Yesterday ended up absolutely sucking. I went to the homecoming game without a sweatshirt first of all and ended up buying a 30 dollar school sweatshirt (with my school's name on it and all). Then, I got so bored. I don't really like football in the first place, and the only reason I went yesterday was because they were announcing homecoming king and queen (The guy I voted for for king won!). But the crowning wasn't till half time, so I had to sit through the first half of the game with my friends, totally bored. My other friend Nikki didn't feel good, and we both wanted to go home. My friend Nicole, though, wanted to stay. She got really mad at me and said "I missed a bunch of football games because of you!" and I got really mad and said "You don't need me to go with you to the games! Go by yourself if you wanna go so bad!" 

Nikki was originally gonna come over my house with me, but instead she wanted to go home. That kinda made me upset, because I knew I would have to deal through the rest of the time with Nicole mad at me! I called my mom (On Nicole's phone because mine died for the millionth time) and she came to pick us up. 

Nicole was absolutely pissed at me, she barley even talked.  I had told my mom earlier that I was upset about something, and she stupidly decided to bring it up in the car with Nicole there. So when we dropped Nicole off, she sent me a text saying "I'm not oblivious, viv." , meaning that she "knows" that I'm mad at her. 

When I got home and went up to my room, I called my best source of happiness, my cousin Carly. But I really wanted to talk to someone about what I was feeling. 

So I told her, through sobs and hysterical crying, how I felt that I really can't keep doing this to Nicole, not hanging out with her, ditching her, etc. I feel so bad about it, and I know what to do, but I'm to stubborn to. And I know that if this keeps up, I'm gonna loose another best friend. That got me thinking about my ex-best friend from the post the other day. She and I were really great friends, but she started talking about me behind my back.  And that really hurt me that someone that I was such great friends with would do that to me. So really, I sort of know how Nicole feels. And I do feel great remorse, and I don't know how to make it up to her. 

I don't want to loose another friend. 

~ Vanessa :(